All Over Again

I'm back to where I started, or at least it feels that way. My incision continued to get worse during the weekend. Yesterday, I started to run a slight fever and then the incision began to open up - again. I called the doctor first thing this morning requesting to come in a day early. I really didn't want to, but I know I needed to, and she was very glad I did.

The doctor wasn't even in the room for a minute. She looked at the incision, freaked out a little, and then walked out calling for intravenous antibiotics STAT. They didn't even wait for insurance approval. As soon as I sat in the chemo room for the nurse to start the meds I started to cry. I just couldn't believe this was happening all over again. My doctor came in and was very compassionate. She had hoped that I would bypass this problem and have a good week before my last chemo treatment. She had the nurse take more blood for cultures and actually took a sample of the incision to send to the lab. They've done this each time and it always comes back normal - it's just me that's not normal.

I'm exhausted. I'm not sure if it's actually physical or the emotional roller coaster I feel like I've been on. I will be going to the cancer center in each day for the rest of the week (except Friday because of the holiday observance) to continue with the antibiotic. It will make it seem like a long week. I'm just praying I will feel better by Thursday because it's Katie's 12th birthday. I want to make the day special for her and she's not pleased that I have to go in on Thursday. I just have to take one day at a time. Oh, I forgot, I'm taking it one hour at a time.