So Far No Change

How I long to tell you that the fluids and medications they have been given me this week has helped. Sadly, each day I have felt worse. Yesterday, after my treatment, I came home and crashed. All of sudden I started having major back spasms that were the worst I've ever experienced. I told Jim if there was a shot to put me down like a dog I would have wanted it. I'm guessing that's why there isn't one. I was so miserable. Being in labor was a breeze compared to the pain I experienced last night.

They have no idea why. Of course, it's me right? Now, they are thinking it's probably the Neupogen injections that are bringing on the pain. Today, the spasms came again but not as intense, and they did allow me to take additional medication for the pain.

I think once the blood work comes back they're going to find the antibiotic was not the correct one for the infection (just my guess). Sadly, my incision is looking worse each day. Today, the nurse said it looks like it wants to pop open. It continues to make no sense to me. On top of it all I have an intense headache that won't go away either.

It's just been a very difficult week. It doesn't seem fair that I will have my next treatment in 7 days. I'm not sure how I'm going to get through it.

Well...I'm off to try and get some rest. At least I made it short this time.