Peace in Captivity

Yes, there are days I feel like I've been sent to Babylon. I guess we could call it Cancerlon. Last week was so difficult both physically and mentally, that I thought I would be that way forever. Two things helped it. One, a really, really, really good cry, and two, the love and laughter of my family.

Yesterday, as I was pouring my heart to God, I asked Him to remind me of His plan (not that I really know all of it for sure - might not this side of heaven). My devotional took me to Jeremiah 29. Verse 7 spoke to me. "And seek the peace of the city where I have caused you to be carried away captive, and pray to the LORD for it; for in its peace you will have peace." No words can express the peace I had come over me. Yet, I understand that in the days ahead I still might need to seek it, and pray for it.

During the last four days I have started to feel better. I haven't been nauseated for three days now (yeah!), and the pain in subsiding. I was scheduled to call the Cancer Center yesterday to let them know how I was doing. I found out that today they have me scheduled for my planning session for radiation. A girl can't even get a few days break!!

I will see my regular oncologist in the morning and the radiation oncologist in the afternoon. I will be having a CT Scan, a body mold made (mold is actually smaller than it appears - ha, ha), and permanent markings placed. It's my first time having to go solo (without Jim coming with me) for tests. He keeps it fun. Oh well, at least I won't have to refrain him from touching all the equipment when the doctors or nurses are gone. He is such a big kid.

Well, I need to stop so I can get to my first doctor's appointment. I'll let you know tomorrow how everything went.

Thank you for allowing me to be real, for loving me through all of this, and for all your support and prayers.

I hope you feel my love going out to you today.