Candle Burning

I'm home and just wiped out from this last treatment. I thought I would write quickly before I crash out and rest for awhile.

I woke up this morning in that AM morning daze and thought, "Hm, what do I have to do today? Can I sleep in any longer?" Instantly, I remembered that it was chemo day and my stomach did a flip. It was hard staying focused on making breakfast, having my time in the Word, and getting ready.

I encouraged Jim go to work because I will need him next Monday and Tuesday for doctor appointments, and just the wonderful support he gives me. Kellie had already arranged to take me, so that was covered. She not only made one but two different meals for the nurses. She also made sure to bring her recipes because they always ask. They all raved about what she fixed. They will miss her.

Playing our Nintendo DS games was no fun because she won everything. Yes, I'm a bad loser. I felt bad for her because she was having an allergic reaction to a new deodorant and she had to take some Benadryl. She curled up in the chair next to me and fell asleep for an hour. I took a picture (she doesn't know). Before I left they gave me a few samples of a stronger med to help with the nausea if it gets as bad as it did last time - yeah!

As always, Kellie takes me to run a couple errands after we leave. I figure I will not get out of house for at least 7 days. I had her stop at Target so I could purchase a tall, long lasting candle. My friend Coreen, after my last chemo treatment, suggested the idea. She said, "To burn a candle right after I get home from chemo in the room that I would be resting in. She thought as I slip into my chemo fog, when I would see it, it would help to remind me that there is light and peace awaiting." I thought that was a very encouraging idea. So the candle is burning.

I also have a beautiful bouquet of long stem roses that were sent from Jim's work - the card they sent was just as beautiful. What a special thing for them to do and it meant so much to me. I'm sure they will be a blessing to me in the coming days.

I'm not sure what to ask for prayer. I know they've told me this will be a bad one -but maybe they'll be wrong (you can tell I'm also trying to stay positive). My first thing I think to pray about is my incision and it's reaction to the chemo. My second thing is my body handling coming down from the steroid medication (my doctor forgot to change the order, so I got the full dose in my IV today). The third thing - well I will allow you to pray as you're led - I'm most likely forgetting a whole lot.

My love to you. I will try and blog again soon, I just can't make any promises.