Twizzler Legs

Yes, my legs feel like the consistency of twizzler candy or like wobbly rubber. I'm not sure what is causing it but it is a strange sensation. I'm just really weak.

Yesterday, at the doctors we found out that my white blood cell count is low again. It's at 1.5. The injection they gave me (Neulasta) hasn't seemed to kick in yet. It's a bummer because having the Neulasta brings a not so wonderful side effect - extreme pain in the bones. Now, I have to take pain meds just to get any relief from the pain. I guess I would think it was OK if I felt it was helping with the WBC count. It will be something to discuss with the doctor next week.

I still have a fever. When I first went in it was at 100. I got a little concerned about what that would mean. I had the doctor check it again in both ears. It was 99.6. She has now said they won't proceed with additional antibiotics unless my fever goes to 101. The good news was that all the blood cultures came back negative. She said they had thought it could be a staph infection. I'm glad they don't always tell you why or what they are testing.

After having the second chemo I began to notice a difference in my skin. Katelynn was not so reserved when she just said what she saw, "Mom, you look really bad. It looks like you put on your makeup wrong." She's right. The skin on my face is turning different patches of brown. I remember when I went to the cancer support meeting I saw one of the ladies there and thought the same thing Katie said. I really thought the woman was bad at putting on makeup. Oh, it's just another reason looking in the mirror is horrifying. Mirrors should be removed from your house when you are going through chemo. I know...it's the inside that matters. Unfortunately, it's the outside you see.

I'm just resting, reading (looking up all those Bible verses about how God sees beauty), and writing. I've finally posted my new blog. I sent it out before my last chemo to those women who have encouraged me to write for years. I wanted to get their opinion and their response was so uplifting. The new blog I know won't be for everyone and it won't be about cancer. I would say it will be directed mostly to women. I'm hoping it will be more of a devotional site. So, even though I feel like my legs are shaky and I can't do much even around the house, I can share my heart and use the computer to encourage others. My encouragement comes from reading and studying the Bible. I hope I can inspire others to find the same encouragement. You can read the blog at http://onethingministries.blogspot.com/. I put a permanent link on the side of the page too.