All Your Cares

"casting all your cares upon Him, for He cares for you." 1 Peter 5:7

I guess we could immediately look at this verse and think about the things that pertain directly to us personally. When I read it my "cares" immediately cause me to think of those I love. It's my weak spot. I've been doing a lot of casting the last 12 hours.

I've been sick today but couldn't tell if it was due to the chemo or the news we received yesterday. It's the type of news where you feel as if someone punched you in the gut. Jim's parents asked if they could come out and visit. Jim's mom, Judy, said she needed a hug. I probably would have caught on to something if I was 100% but I didn't. She told us she needed to talk to us alone without the kids. We then knew something wasn't right.

Mom said that she needed prayers because she has been diagnosed with breast cancer.

I didn't cry right away because I was in such shock. She has been undergoing mammograms, MRI's, needle biopsies without a word to us. All because she was walking through it with me a second time and didn't want us to worry about her. I just hurt for her. Everyone needs the love of their family besides them during such a terrifying time. It was so hard to know that we haven't been there for her.

Tomorrow at 1:00 pm she will undergo a lumpectomy. Today she went through the dye test to locate the main sentinel lymph node. During the lumpectomy they will remove the lump and at least 4 to 5 lymph nodes. It will take approximately a week to get the pathology results to determine what treatment mom will go through.

It's a lot harder being on the other side. Now I understand what everyone around me has felt. Helpless. Katelynn and I are taking it really hard. Jim is being a rock. I just can't imagine a man having to watch his mom and wife go through it at the same time.

Please keep her in your prayers tomorrow. Pray that the surgery would go well and every single cell will be removed. Pray for dad as he waits and then cares for mom.

I don't understand why all of this happening. All I can do is pray and trust. It's so hard knowing I can't be there for her as she has been there for me. It breaks my heart. She is loved so much!