Pick Up The Phone

I don't know about you, but when I'm having a hard day it helps to pick up the phone and call a friend. This morning was one of those times. I was so frustrated with the effects chemo has had on my body, and the weariness I feel due to radiation. I'm only 43 and I feel more like 63.

This morning though I felt a tug at my heart not to call anyone on earth, but the friend I have in Jesus. I've never done this before, and you might think I'm very strange, but I pretended I had a phone in my hand and dialed away. "Lord, hi it's me....(I'll leave the details to us)." Through the years I've just learned He loves to hear our hearts - even when what we want to share might not be so bright or cheery. I realize He knows what's in our hearts, but I believe when we go to Him first and not to someone else, when we hang up the phone (like I pretended to do) I could leave all those details with Him.

He knows I'm frustrated with having cancer. He knows my body aches, He knows some days it's really hard to have hope when you see others losing the battle, He knows I'm tired of seeing a mangled body, He knows how tired I am, He knows how much sometimes it hurts to love, He knows it all. What amazes me the most is how He will send me a letter of love, and encouragement to get me through another day, another treatment, and another heart ache. He is so faithful!

So, I'm encouraging you to pick up the phone too. You can be real with Him. He doesn't judge. He loves, and guides. He is a great listener. He will hear you if you call.